99% of the time if I'm having trouble sleeping it is because I
have too many thoughts circling in my head. Therefore the fool
proof solution to fall asleep quickly is to record these
thoughts so that I can revisit them during waking hours.
This
blog was supposed to serve a similar purpose only it was a forum to write thoughts that I was dwelling on during daylight. These thoughts were comprised of moments of sadness and anxiety but also happy moments. Moments of joy
that I kept replaying in my mind because I did not want to forget a
feeling or an experience. Originally I gravitated to the idea of sending these thoughts into the void - hopeful that they were read by others but not focused on the goal of increased readership.
Then this blog became a perfect window into our family when Declan was born. It was a way to share our newest love with the ones we loved.
Eventually what started out as something relaxing, fun, even a little therapeutic turn into its own source of frustration. There was too much feedback and it was no longer something I did for me and therefore I stopped doing it altogether. But I miss writing. I want to document this time in my life and more than ever I need a forum where I can express myself.
Therefore I have decided to continue to write but to leave posts unpublished. I may publish these in the future but for now I have refocused this blog to again be for me.
